Log #184

I never knew I'd settle into politics so easily. It's [i]kinda[/i] like Engineering. But people are the cogs. That feels.. Kinda icky to compare. But that's just how I'm wired. At least I still got time for my projects. Portals are the past-- Now I want the cities to move! All the potential of Banton with a hell of a lot more safety features.

Hah, of course it was never going to be so easy.. My penance is paid, then.. Hopefully.

Feels.. Strange. Being ahead for once. After back to back problems, threats, and calamity.. Maybe it's our time to turn things around.

Haven't been roughed up like that in, well.. Ever. I can't believe people do this sort of stuff [i]regularly.[/i]

It's time.

[i]Why the hell are all the women here so pretty[/i]

Armour is holding.. I haven't given this configuration a real field test yet, so this'll be uh.. Interesting? Haven't hit anything outside of dummies yet. .. Those dummies did get pretty messed up, though.

I guess we can add "pissing off deities of Death and Judgement" to our application forms.. Jeez. I guess I'm glad I never bothered using this damn wish before.

I'm really getting tired of seeing the same tragedy over and over again. I'm not even sure if I can feel sad about it anymore. It's just.. I'm burnt.

Well, more innocent people are dead. Colour me surprised that Hylda would cut corners and slaughter the mind-controlled rather than try and find a solution that [i]didn't[/i] involve killing them. As if we needed any more reasons to take her out.

This... This feels like the right path.

I feel there is so much I cannot say to Kira about.. Everything. This is all just too much to deal with right now, but if I try to leave with Sanctity now.. We’ll just wind up dead. The Singularity device is just.. Sat there. I should be working on it. We [i]need[/i] to finish it.. I can’t just be sitting here, doing nothing, eating.. I need to work. I have to work.

I feel like I'm going to be sick. What the fuck was.. ANY of that?? God I-- I just [i]attacked[/i] him I wasn't thinking-- I.. God, I can't leave here until I know it's safe now, can I? ... At least my family are safe..

WHY DID I CHOOSE NOW OF ALL TIMES TO BE A SELFLESS IDIOT??

I guess I’ll mark that as [i]two[/i] terrifying beings that have forced my hand. What the fuck do I even [i]do[/i] now.

I need something else to work on.. I swear this project is going to kill me off from exhaustion before we even get back into live testing. Maybe I could look into the comms device I was thinking about.. Before. … I wonder if Kira still remembers anything about that. I’ll have to message Glitterfeather, I guess.

I feel like we’re so [i]close[/i] to an answer.. But each inch of progress brings in some new issue that knocks us right back to where we were. Please.. Just be soon.

Log #184

October 13th. 75 days. We’re cycling another round of testing today.. I can get the gate to generate this side but we’re struggling to maintain it and have it manifest on the other end. We’ll briefly amplify it’s power output to see if the extr...

01:35 am - 03.06.2022

Work is steadily progressing despite.. Interruptions. Sanctity has helped temper my more clouded thoughts and keep me focused on my work, and, well.. Myself. Not that I [i]deserve[/i] it.

Of course, they’d pick [i]now[/i] of all times to tell me of this very critical attribute of Halidom. Gods.. I had it with me when Banton fell. All of those people, they— Why? Why am I continuing to be punished? Will I never be forgiven for letting them into my home?

I should've turned in the lot of them the moment I got into the city. Last time I trust outsiders again.

I think my heart is going to give out before I finish this damned device. GOD THAT WAS JUST ONE OF THE ASSISTANTS

Heyyyyy Alcohol is good sometimes

Holy shit. I’m gonna be rich.

I’m so thankful for my parents.. I think I know what I should do now.

GAHHH WHY AM I SO STUPID AND BAD WITH PEOPLE

Well, that made me feel just [i]great[/i] about my life decisions. Maybe I shouldn’t have left.. Gah, I don’t even know anymore.

Hhhhokay, the train cart we smuggled ourselves onto got shot at with cannons and we had to run for it with two other people that were also hiding out that we had no idea about. We’re alive, thank the gods. Tannis is safe, relatively speaking. I need to make sure she stays that way.

I can’t believe this is how people are living under the Empyrean military.. Forced to be ashamed and scared of themselves. I wont stand for it. But I will stand for her.

I.. I didn’t think we’d be [i]killing[/i] anyone.. I’m sorry. I don’t know who you were, maybe you were just following orders or you genuinely wanted to kill us for using magic— But I’m sorry that we— [i]I[/i] had to.. At least the cultists were easier to justify.. Hurting that poor bird so they could try and control it. Its better those kinds of people are.. Are dealt with.

Wait.. No— This isn’t right! We.. are we actually fighting? They aren’t monsters! They’re just.. People! I thought— What am I supposed to do..?

How uh How the heck do you put lipstick on?? I don't know how the heck to use this thing

Oh my god I had that kiss on my cheek all day it was just there did Kira know??? Was that in purpose????? Oh I was just walking around and talking normally I want to DIE

Today was uh IT WAS REALLY GOOD? God Kira is really quick we bounce ideas off each other we got SO MUCH DONE TODAY also she kissed me and WHAT HHHHHH SHE KISSED ME??? SHE [i]KISSED ME?????[/i] I DONT KNOW IF SHE REALISED BECAUSE IT WAS REALLY RANDOM BUT OH GOD WHAT? WHAT?? WHAT DO I DO

Hhhokay, okay okay. It’s just visiting a workshop— Just a regular ol’ going to a workshop with Kira to see stuff. Oh god what do I [i]do[/i] I just wanted to see the guild place but now she says its a [i]date[/i] and oh why I didn’t I just thought it AAAAAA She was joking. Jokes! It was just a joke. I think. Yeah no that makes sense

Well, okay! Seems like we have a fairly solid way to get back to Empyrea, but the journey is going to be long and [i]rough[/i]. I just hope I don’t leave my folks too long without any kind of message.. I met a dragon today. She was.. Wow. Yeah uh There are so many pretty people here @.@ I might’ve been drunk when I got back to their like, house place. So that was a first! They seem really nice. They really like teasing me and it would certainly be fine if I didn’t clam up at every little commen— Gaaah. WHY AM I GETTING FUNNY JUST WRITING THIS HERE?

Well! My device works, at least! I was able to successfully jump into another plane; but I'm kinda stuck now. Oh well, I've at least met some uh.. Kind?? people?? I'm in a bar now. I am drinking. A LOT IS HAPPENING. It's fine. It's probably fine. I hope things are okay back at the shop. [i]Why in the hells does everyone have to be cute AND THEY KEEP [b]POINTING IT OUT-[/b][/i]